Dreamer, welcome back.

I care about you also, and the troubles you are having.

Until you stop running from whatever is making you do this and discuss it with your T, you will continue to harm yourself. Now, has that really accomplished anything at all? Not from my chair over here.

It seems to be making you feel worse and more depressed and then you SI more............you've got a vicious circle here and it needs to really stop. It won't till you talk openly with someone and try to deal with whatever issues you have.

I stopped SI ing awhile back - when I really looked at the marks on my body and realized that I was doing nothing but making horrible cuts that I would have to grow old with........

Please start trying to help yourself.

Mary Alice