I just wrote a letter to my provider. I go see her next week & I am so ashamed at my recent behavior (overdose) that I didn't think I could face telling her in person. So now she knows what is up & I don't have to tell the story. It might help to write a letter to your therapist & explain how you are feeling. I would imagine she'd get you in before a month from now with how you are feeling. Also, you might want to consider meds. Have been very helpful for me. Take care.--Suzy