No Elizabeth the world would be worse off without you. It is in my limited experience that good people are constantly questioning themselves while fools run rampant without a thought for the things they say and do.

Everyone won't understand your pain. I can't say I do. But there are people here who can relate to you and who you can talk to. I only ask that you remember that your life is your own and that alone makes it special. That alone makes it worth fighting for. I hope all goes well.