oops didn't see the new couch so copied and pasted this here from the other couch

omg had horrible dreams last night about being kidnapped as a kid by some guy and i had killed someone and he had me in public and no adults did anything to help me and i didn't do anything to get away either he left me at a table alone to get some food.and there were a bunch of adults around who did nothing to help me .i then decided to run .but was seen by the guy who kidnapped me and he chased me with a gun but no one would help. i lost him and went back to this park and all the adults had gone away. except as i was trying to leave the park i was continually attacked by different guys and i was screaming.that finely woke me up. believe me there was a lot more .but it is all scrambled up. it was like this dream went on and on all night. it was horrible and has left me feeling the same this morning. i know it was just a dream and all but wow. i think it is coming from that session i had the week before las when we were talking about all the people in my life i felt were kind to me and how i see them and most people in life as horrible at most and indifferent at best. i wanted to talk to my T about this and how with all these nice people in the end no one ever helped me until later in life when i felt it was too late . anyway just a bad dream no big deal.