I have a question..not sure if i can make sense enough on how to ask but im going to try.
back when i had taken a med combo that caused me to halicuinate (auditory and visual) i heard what i thought were deamons and angels fighting over my soul. Among other things as well. But that one in particular has stuck with me. Its been a year now since that happened and i repeatedly in my head ask God to forgive me then say things such as f God and go back to asking forgivness. This is an all day long occurance. I beleived i was going to end up in hell when i had those halicunations so thats when i started doing that. Since im not in that state of my mind anymore i havnt been able to stop. It happens out of the blue and i have to try so hard not to focus on it. I was wondering if maybe i had caused myself some sort of internal teretts or something because thats exactly what it feels like. Sometimes i do say it aloud but when others arnt around. I dont know what to make of this? Can anyone relate or understand? Sorry for any mispellings..im a little extra tired this morning. Thanks in advanced for any replies.