Do you ever just feel stupid when you're out in public for no reason? For example, last week I went to a college basketball game, and the whole time, I just felt really stupid. I am in the thick of a bad depressive episode, and seeing everyone so happy, and clapping, and yelling just made ME feel dumb for them. Then I really felt dumb when I would clap, or when the person I was there with would make me laugh. I felt stupid for laughing. It's not a small feeling that I can push away either. It's an all-consuming, draining feeling of stupidity thats hard to shake off and it makes me very self-conscious. It's the same feeling that I get all the time at school and when I'm shopping and stuff, but it was really bad at the game, and now I'm being *dragged* to another game, so it got me thinking, and now I've just been wondering if anyone else has experienced it.

Side note-hope everyone's doing okay.

Nomad