I am new here. I tried another support group last year when my dad was battling a rare disease. He passed last may. His death was sudden and left me alone as he was not married and I have noI siblings. I am unhappily married and have 2 kids and did teach 4th grade until a week ago when i got so bad i had to take a leave. Nine months ago even though i know it is wrong. I fell in love with another man and recently Bc others found out he is now ignoring me until he claims enough time passes. I do believe we are equally in love and as much pain. I have been depressed for months now and suffered on and off my whole life with it. I'm on Meds. Its not working. I can't eat and stay in bed all day except when I have to use all my inner strength to play Mommie to my 4 and 6 year olds. I don't know what to do. I am so depressed and lost and feel like I have not got any purpose and feel like death would be easier. But i would nevrt do that because pf my children. In all my years of depression I have never felt pain like this ever. please help.