Understandable. But it seems to me that wanting things they are not giving you is not the way to the calm that you probably want. You are putting your fate in their hands, which is probably not what you really want.

More than my family, I have been angry at my original psychotherapist -- actually I am still angry with him for his mental health mistakes, such as projecting onto me thoughts which in fact he held -- but being able to analyze the situation, coming to the conclusion that that is actually what happened, makes it easier for me to continue with my life and growth. Maybe you, like me, can find that understanding what other people are doing, or believing that you finally comprehend, makes your life more enjoyable.