If what I write here is inappropriate a mod may delete it. I have no one in my life outside PC to tell my problems to other than my adult son and while I have talked to him a little bit, I sense it distresses him and what I am describing is outside his area of expertise, so to speak, so I have stopped trying to talk to him about my mental state.

Over the years I have felt the people I was friends with were more interested in themselves and their needs and their families and so one by one they dropped off the radar. I don't miss them. I'm not saying they were bad people; we just didn't have enough in common to remain friends.

I have an abundance of acquaintances but I don't feel right telling them what is bothering me. I often feel like I am meant to be alone; if not by some cosmic design, then by the upbringing I had which I won't go into here.

I find PC invaluable because I have made friends here.