Hamster, my apologies. I know that, comparatively speaking, my situation is not anywhere near your level... and I am certainly seeking therapy for the reasons you listed above. I do often catastrophise things and suffer from anxiety (but apparently not straight up depression). My psychologist had my doctor start me on Lexapro this week for the anxiety. I am working on mindfulness as well.
For me, the past week has been a roller coaster and I was very emotionally torn up. It is very difficult to hear the person you love say they may be no longer in love with you. I am gaining perspective and strength with each day and hoping that I can rebuild with my wife... it doesn't change the fact that right now, in my position, this is a horrible feeling and situation.
I feel horrible to hear your situation and can understand why you think I am being completely foolish. From your position I am sitting pretty. I am very sorry to hear what your husband had put you through and can't even comprehend how someone could do that. You have my sympathies for certain.
Hopefully my wife and I can reconcile. I don't want her to say she loves me every 5 minutes... but I do want her to be in love with me because I am still in love with her.
And, just to answer your other question, we are looking at either OBX or Myrtle Beach. Hopefully at the end of August... and maybe by then I will be able to share positives both in my therapy/treatment and my marriage.
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