Sam2- Yes he knows that I am bisexual and he doesn't have a problem with that. It's just a lot of memories are coming back from the past and that is basically when all the confusion started. Maybe it's just because he is a guy and I'm so used to being afraid of guys, that I can only feel safe lately when we aren't doing sexual things, even though I know if and when I do say no he doesn't try to pressure me. I do feel more attracted to girls a lot of the time because no girl has ever hurt me or taken advantage of me. But I do love my fiancee and he deserves the chance to prove he isn't the same. He has been trying to help me by being there for me when I have bad dreams or the memories come up. I don't know I'm probably sounding stupid I'm just going through everything in my head.
hamster-bamster- Thanks for reading and commenting and trying to help. I however do not really think I am too young to get married. Age isn't the problem. I know people in their 30s or 40s who have gotten married and divorced within 10 years, but I also know people who were my age when they got married and have been happily married for years and are still very in love. I do agree that I should know my orientation before I decide for sure to get married, but the age factor is something I have never agreed with, and trust me I have heard it a lot. I am in college full time, and I have a job and so does he. We live together and basically live like we're married anyway. I will graduate from college next March so the education thing I have covered. I would like to find a better job so I am in the process of looking for a better one, while still working the one I have now until I find a better one. The confusion has not been there through our whole relationship, it started when the guy who did some very bad things to me tried to contact me and since then it's been bad as far as my mind goes. How exactly do I have priority confusion just because I'm getting married? I'm not being rude I would just like to know. We also aren't planning on getting married until after I graduate college. Again, nothing I said was meant to sound rude, I just thought I should further explain.