Thank you for the support,
You guys are great. I only spent 24 hrs inpatient. Although the Psyc Unit is nice in the fact that it has individual rooms and bathrooms, also the food is good, the level of care has gone way down!
I have been going there since 2000, it is the only Psyc unit covered 100% because it is in the network of hospitals my husband works at.

Until recently, the nurses and techs on every shift would spend time talking with you. This doesn't happen anymore. The nurse manager says it because of staffing issues. In my view and my husband's there appears to be the same amount of staff. They now sit behind the nursing station chatting, browsing the Internet and just standing there. God forbid you ask them to talk to you.

I arrived Thursday afternoon and asked for my felt tip markers I brought to start journaling about Jason. WWW 3 started, you can't have them they are weapons. Mine you there is a bin of them on a table in the community room. I argued with them on this point and they began to threaten me. Get away from the nurses station if you don't stop we will take your cross off ! My cross ? The same cross I buried Jason with !!! The cross I was assured I could wear ? Now I am Hot.

My husband calls the nurse manager. Gets no where. He calls the VP of the hospital and all of a sudden I have my markers and cross has not left my body (good thing)

This wore me out I went in my room at 4:00pm never came out till the next day. Needless to say no one checked on me or talked to me. As soon as my PDOC arrived Friday afternoon I was out of there.

I have spent the day trying to find a Psych unit, center or retreat that I could go to to help with the life shattering grief I feel. I couldn't find anything.

I haven't showered,changed clothes but at least I don't feel suicidal.