hi lost_lonely. please remember that there ARE people who care, but depression puts blinders on us so that we can't see anyone or anything that is around. it is difficult to talk about it sometimes but it is a good start to begin talking about it here among people who understand.

as for asking for help, if it is hard to ask someone personally for help, there are places to get help for yourself available. if you start at <A target="_blank" HREF=http://suicidal.com/>this link</A> there are resources including hotline numbers to call. if you call they will automatically put the call through to someplace local, and they can talk with you and get you the help you need. if you just want to talk to them that's ok too. if you feel really bad you can also go to your local er emergency room. they will respect your privacy if you want that, they have to by law.

please take a look and try to give one of those options a shot. we can provide friendship and support for you but you need to look into something that will give you more immediate help. we'll be here to support you while you take those steps.

good luck.

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