okay, so the cutting isn't normal.

No... I haven't shown him. He hasn't seen. I've made it a point to keep them from my parents. Mainly because I KNOW they frown upon 'such behaviour', and believe it is 'completely for attention'. I would be in so much trouble/sent away if they knew. My mother is not a tollerant person, and so I think she would just laugh at me and say something like 'Your mental? Honey, this whole family is mental! Deal with it!"

I have a very broad family history of mental disorders/brain diseases/cancer. On my fathers side, 3/5 brothers committed suicide, where the fourth was an alcaholic and my father is... my father. Going back before that there is alot of mental issues such as depression. On my mums side, everyone is dead from cancer of the brain... I have a small family.

I think I should try and see someone annonymously? Without my parents knowledge? How do I do this?