How can you tell the difference? My battle has gone on since the first day I can recall as a child, seeing several doctors, trying so many drugs/dosages, 3 different counseling professionals including once with hypnotherapy, and still no relief, no improvement, no upswing in any facet of my personality. 6 decades of regrets of nearly every major decision including finances, employment, & relationships, but somehow avoided the non-prescription drugs/alcohol/crime/rage/smoking temptations, but zero hobbies (tried many different types), no friends or dependable family members, and now (even longer almost unbelievable story) no job (I did NOTHING wrong, but Human Resources maintains my immediate supervisor's decision is etched in stone)... But if I'm mentally ill, how is that tested/verified? Sick of pills, answering pointless questions, and waiting for the next disaster, which historically is not far away. Just keep existing, and praying, and wishing for a miracle that may not come until I die of old age? I'd rather LIVE, no exist... Any suggestions?