I dig my nails in hard sometimes to keep myself focused on that rather than anything else. I do it in a way that can't be noticed and I am aware that I'm doing it. I do it at the dentists sometimes too. It's not something I do often, in fact, I actually think only once or twice in therapy. Once was during my last session. I was worried that I was going to make myself bleed and make it obvious, but I had to work really hard to keep my attention on that and not panic even more about what was happening during my session. I almost never do anything outside of sessions either. Just occasionally, like that.

I have started shaking lately too. Well, during my last session was actually my first time shaking while I was there, and I also shake now when I think about going back. I don't think it's to the point that it's noticeable to other people, but I'm not sure. It's not in a normal hand tremor because I'm nervous sort of way either. It's more like the inside of me is shaking and a bit of it radiates out. I feel disconnected from it and like it happens when I'm blocking something really big.