Drugs do not cure BPD. It is a learned behavior brought on by the way we were raised or were treated. Drugs are sometimes used to take off the edge but they don't solve it.

I understand completely that it is a learned behavior, but it is the only thing that I can resort to now. I can't tolerate day after day of cynicism, negativity, self-loathing, isolation and lack of energy. I wish I had access to a professional who would help me solve the root problems of my BPD but that takes resources I don't have. I am looking for one however.