T,

Can't we sort this out somehow? Can't you go back to believing in me like you used to? Where did your patience go? I know I've made it difficult, but it's not like I sat around not improving all these years. I've done so much. I don't want to lose you. Don't you know, I like you for who you are, all that you've shared of yourself, not just for what you can do for me? I don't want to lose that person. Despite everything, I think she's...worth knowing. I love her. I respect her. I want her to return to being the person who will get me through this.

What does happen after the end? What are the rules and boundaries then?
Do you realise if we make this a break that I'll probably never make it back to you?
Do you realise that wrapping up four years so suddenly in 50 minutes is heartbreaking and impossible?
How long before you delete a former client's details from your phone?
Would you be repulsed by hugging me goodbye? Will you read that it's what I want and still not offer? I think that's most likely.
Will you actually be sad? Perhaps you'll just feel sad that I'm sad.
How quickly do you think you'll (mostly) forget all about me?
Do you care about me? Why wouldn't you think of me in a life threatening situation if we were together?
Will you be gentle with me?
Will you realise that the reason I'm crying and so distressed goes far being "she's just processing things"?
Do you realise this will be the biggest loss I've had to survive?
Do you realise that I can't do this and that even though the sessions are causing me pain that I have absolutely no other support?
Do you realise that the pain of leaving will be immeasurably greater than the pain of working through this?