if only i grew up normally
if only my dad pay attention to my mom more
if only my mom didn't use me to be a place for her anger
if only my brother would believe in me when i tell him i was sad
if only i'm braver
if only i can fight my sad, and depression

so, i won't hurt people feeling again
so, mom will smile again
so, dad won't cause trouble again
so, brother won't mad at me
so, i will have a normal social life...
so, i will be more brave
so, i can smile....