I have been where you are. I could talk about it to no one--until I reached the point of being prepared to kill myself rather than re-experience the terror in a similar situation. I found a therapist who practiced EMDR. It did the trick---and quickly. I can't tell you the relief I feel now.

Yes, I had to relive it, but "safety nets" were put in place with the help of the therapist before we began. It really does work. Please consider finding someone!