WEll I have a check up Wednesday.... but I think I'll smash my head in before that.. eventually I'll be beyond help I am sure.. Already feel like it.. I don't think that the Pdoc even fully cares.. I'd told him some feelings and he just goes "what about these meds?" Makes me wanna smash my head in even more! Still going to be awhile before I can have a councilor because there are alot of others there, who take up there time, from tho's of us who really need it.

I need a friend, someone here to take thee thoughts away.. Its been about 8 years since I have hurt myself, why does it come back now?