my whole body is eating itself up from the inside and the problem now is this is showing through to my life on the outside. I need so very much to control this but I can't as of yet or at least I haven't been able to. I have so far being trying to hide this not so very well and yet although my sroundings may be giving me a chance I have little to function with to be appreciative and able to once work on putting the emotional pain in the past and learn to live as I once did. Yet all I can do is more of the same and hope I can get away in a new place with how I may have once been able to if I didn't let too much show but I am human and have emotions that get the better of me and at the moment getting too much and in the way of every aspect of my life.