i've been through a sevaral relationships im 52 now had a son from an old fiance. who abused me to the nt degree. i am so happy it ended, looking back now after being in a 17 year marriage, still going strong, its a good relationship, he puts up with so much stuff and i have to say with my psychological problems, i'm schitzoaffective and depressed, he is my healer. i never would have met him if i stayed with the jerk i was with. there is so much out there for you, you'll get over your sisters death in time, but you need to think of yourself and healing from this guy you were talking about, tell him your not going to let him abuse you anymore -, it sounds like emotional abuse, maybe not but do you really want to go through the loneliness on your own when he tries it again? i remember going through emotional feelings of grief after a person i loved broke up with me, but in the end you're better off. put another notch in your lipstick case. you deserve it all the good in the world. i'll pray for you too.avlady