Thank you guys. I am trying the best that I can but it seems that guilt completely takes over and controls how my days are going to be. A few weeks ago the team moved me down to IOP because I was not making any progress in day treatment and based on past experience, IOP is an environment that is more conducive to my recovery, personally. They gave me two options right now and they are to pick myself up while in IOP or they will have to send me back to residential. That scared the crap out of me when my therapist told me that because there is no way I will go back to residential, I can't. My list of safe foods is growing smaller and smaller and it is getting more difficult to eat each day it feels like.

Gr3tta - my nutritionist is letting me try anything that will get me to eat, she is letting me stick to my safe foods, doesn't put too much pressure on what time I am eating, and told me if it is easier to replace Ensure with food for now. I feel bad for her because I am being so difficult right now. At this time I am not able to try new foods because I am having a difficult enough time trying to eat foods that were safe foods two weeks ago and no longer are. Try not to feel bad about giving advice while you are struggling, we all do it.

I feel like I am hanging by a thread...