Christa, I only had one manic episode and it was a very good high on life feeling with lots of energy, etc. I did not feel any depression at all during that time. This was over 10 years ago and I have not felt manic like that since. I think I am suffering from depression now. I seem to be either normal mood or really depressed with my bipolar, never up except for that one time. How many times do you cycle from manic to depressed?