OK...stay calm and hang in there. That's a tall order but I am sure I can work my way though it. Printing off the post is a good idea. I feel better simply talking about what I am going through. Thanks for responding to my post and to be honest I would have felt fine with someone saying simply that things will get better. I don't know anyone in R/L that understands or can relate to what I am going through. I don't mean to sound like a whiner but this is real and I am in over my head and I can't seem to get a breather of air.