Bathony,

Every time I see a post by you, I can feel your loneliness, self-hate and anger very strongly. That comes across to me LOUD and clear. I have a ton of things that I want to say to you!! I have been there for a long-arse time, so I can really relate.

BUT, then I am always struck by the line in your signature: No hugs, No Q's about therapy...and you used to have something else very negative in there as well. (I can't recall what it was.) Anyway... those words automatically push me away. Even though I want to offer my wisdom or kind thoughts, I feel as though you are holding up a sign that says, "PISS OFF!!" (only a little more dramatically).

Maybe you don't know how strong that signature is?? Because, I see below that strong statement you've brought up your intense loneliness and self-hate again. What could I possibly say to you????? I seriously cannot think of a thing that doesn't go against your wishes in some way. I hate that! I would really love to reach out and help you work through or simply accept your misery. I have been there! Hell, I am there right now!! But, do you know what? When you accept the misery, it actually feels a little better.

I can imagine that if I feel like this online than those in the real world probably feel as though they're being pushed away as well. You may not be aware of how angry you're coming off as to others, but you should take this post as a blunt signal ~ in response to your blunt post. I really do hope that it helps you re-think things and make certain that you're coming off the way that you want to.