Thanks for your feedback and kind words. Yep, still going to therapy and trying to work out where all the anger comes from. Im certainly not going to inflict it on anyone else, my focus is on being well and trying to never hurt anyone again the way I did. It's complicated but mostly I just need to take responsibility for my moods and for directing my pain in a constructive manner
If only it didn't hurt so much! But I guess that's where the learning is