I haven't been on here in a while, but i feel like now's a good time. i haven't cut in over a month... but i know i will eventually, just like the past year. i go for even a few months without SI, but i snap and do it. besides i sleep with a razor between my pillows.

i have also found that the deeper the wound, the stronger and better i feel. i also feel weak if i don't draw much blood. i have became more secretive about it. i used to do it on my arms, now i do it on my stomach... then no one knows because i no longer see a school counselor. which is okay, but i wish i had someone to talk to about mental stuff...

i have been thinking, and i was wondering if anyone else feels the same.... Do you ever feel bad or melancholy when you read about people who SI more severely than you?

thanks for reading

-- Samantha