I am severely depressed right now. I don't want to eat, I'm tired, I haven't slept, I'm suicidal, I want to cut, and I don't know what to do.

Today was terrible. I was just sitting in a room by myself, staring at nothing. I was dead to the world. I was gone. I wanted to die. Or slice up my arms. I wanted to cut super deep and watch myself bleed. But when I try to cut, I'm too weak to do it. I'm too weak for it to even bleed a little. The cut was barely red.

I'm exhausted and Ive slept less than 5 hrs in the past 4 days. I have night terrors. And there are so many thoughts running through my head, I literally screamed at one point. I don't want to live.

But I will never kill myself. I have one thing to live for still. I have been planning to drug myself though. Just to knock me out for a while. If I'm lucky, a few days. I want to not move, and rot where I lay.

HELP ME!!! I need advice! And fast! I don't want to do something to myself that I can't take back.