((((canders))))) I'm so sorry i didn't see your post up until now. I know how hard it can be to fully be able to open up and have an honest conversation with someone, and i know how heartbreaking it is to see the people you care the most about slowely fade away. But as hard as it is, it truly helps if you can at least find enough strength to talk to those that you do trust. Last night i had probably the biggest emotional breakdown in a long time .. feeling these same things - uncontrolably crying, built up emotions, loneliness ... the list could go on. But i called up someone very important to me. You know what she said, she told me that i needed to start being honest with myself, and that i needed to have someone that i can talk to. And we talked for over an hour and by the end of the conversation i felt so much better, even just being able to talk about a fraction of what was wrong. Canders you are a beautiful person, and i just know that you have enough strength in order to get through this rough patch. Keep your head up, and feel free to message me whenever you want. You can do this.

((((hugs))))