(((mummy1))),

Oh hun, I am so sorry that you have not been able to get the support you need with all of this. Your husband sounds very cold and only concerned about "himself". Your mother obviously is "ignorant" about the fact that you are really "challenged" right now. Her advice of "just snap out of it" is truely a solid expression of her "ignorance" .

I think that your effort to find a good therapist is important, you do need someone who can "validate" your challenge and help you to find "more positive" ways of thinking and developing a plan where you can get the care and help/support you need.

If you do have a debilitating condition, you may be able to get on an asistance program, and that is something a good therapist can help you with as well.

You really need to make an effort to make sure you don't keep convincing yourself to "expect the worst". A good therapist can also help you with that and there may be things you can do that you are just not aware of right now.

Welcome to PC, there are alot of very supportive members here who "know the challenge" of feeling alone and having no sense of direction. Try your best to "keep your chin up" and reach out, find a therapist and a path towards finding the help and support you need.

A therapist "can" meet with your mother and explain to her that "you can't "just" snap out of this and that if she is "more supportive" she can help you, rather then continue on her path of "ignorance". I have had to have my therapist help me with this too, and it has made a difference in my not feeling so alone and lost.

(((Welcoming Hugs)))
Open Eyes