This is what I'm trying to explain and they don't understand. I think you're seeing what I mean. They are like asking a blind man to tell them what color shirt they are wearing. I am trying to live up to their standards but it's like trying to dig through the wall with pencile and It's very frustrating. Like, the disorganization is because of something but I don't know what's wrong exactly.

I don't know what to do about it. I am trying to get my moods in order as best I can. I am trying to set up color coordination of my desk. Because I find color coordinating things help. Like, if one color means "project in progress" I will be more likely to put a paper there if it's part of that project. (Not 100% but more likely.) But my brain goes into these fits where I can't think and it's very frustrating and I try to explain and no one around me seems to get it. -.-

The issue of disorganization was the first reason I wanted to disclose my illness at work. Because I couldn't get passed it and it was frustrating, and I thought if they knew I wasn't doing it on purpose and there was actually something wrong, then they would be more understanding.... that didn't happen.