I was manic last week for about 4 or 5 days it felt great!! But the last few days I have felt worse than I ever have. I saw my psychiatrist this morning and I told her I was suicidal and she said that was ok but I couldn't use her pills she has perscribed me to try to kill myself because she would get into trouble, am I the only one that thinks that is wrong? I asked for help but I didn't get it and I know I will try to within a couple of days which would be the 3rd time in the last few months. I hope this time I actually hope I die because I hate the way I feel and nobody cares if I die or not. I just want it to all just go away!