I'm sorry that you feel that way, but i bet things will get better for you. Since you were happy before what says that you will never be again? And even though living may seem pointless you should still go one because you don't want to be a statistic (as in how every 19 minutes in the US alone sumone will have killed themself). Life is for the taking, it is what you make it. If you don't like it than it's up to you to make it better. Sumtimes I wish I could listen to my own advice because I contemplate suicide at least everyday even when I am happy and i tell you i'm still here so obviously i could get through it. So please try hard and if you want to talk about it more you can PM me anytime. And though you may not beleive it, there is a lot of people who care if you die or not and will feel really horrible if you do and blame it on themselves, which is not a nice guilt trip to leave on anyone. So please reconsider and think over any ideas of suicide that you might have. Talk to sumone or call a suicide hotline. just anything but hurt yourself. I'm sure you can get through this. *Hugs*