Today I woke up feeling a little sad. Maybe because I dreamt of him and I found out the last two pics I keep of us together. I think he might as well be happy with his marriage and, I know I'm selfish, but I really wish he wasn't. It's much easier to think that he's the one who's wrong than knowing I wasn't wife material for him. But then I tell myself that I shouldn't care about his happiness, but focus on my own life.

I know there will be ups and downs. I still felt something and maybe I still do and it doesn't go away so easily, but with patience and trying to think about something else, it will be over soon. I know it, it's not the first time that I end up with a broken heart and it's always about being or not the right person for the other one.

And I have nothing to be sad about. A guy I liked a long long time ago, told me things that almost made me cry! We were kind of dating those days and we were really in love, but he was taking his time to ask me to be his girlfriend. I believe some people interfered because of envy and we stopped talking to each other for two years. After 10 years, he said those things, like I deserve the best, like I'm a really smart girl and he even seemed a little embarrased of saying those things... So... He might not be the one, but they say we are lost without the tiniest hope. Bad thing is he's far away from here and I don't know if he's willing to come back. We'll see, I really need to learn to be patient and try not to control everything!

Thank you again!