Well, I've only had 5 actual "boyfriend/girlfriend" relationships. The first when I was fourteen with a boy that I wouldn't "give it up" so he dumped me. The next not until I was 18 with a guy who again, did the same thing. Then the guy I thought was the one who crushed my heart, causing me to marry my ex husband, and then now my husband who is the person I actually love and truely want to spend my whole life with.

In my experience I had a lot of what, back then, I thought was love but now I realize were just intense crushes on guys. And they were all unrequited. There was a whole string of them, kind of like your list. And every time I thought it was love and no, they didn't want anything to do with me. (Most of them didn't even want to be friends with me.) I got a lot of heart stomping responses from the simple "no, let's be friends instead," all the way up to the "I don't want to be seen with you in public, you're disgusting." I can't even remember very many of them by name now. They just fade away.

And then, there was one guy who I was totally sure it was actual love. And we spent a lot of time together but just as friends, and neither of us said anything, then he moved away to college. It put me into the cycle of regret. Which lead me to that heart crushing ex boyfriend, and so on...

So, my advice is that yes, you will get passed it. It takes time, but it will happen. And don't just "get over it," but let it go, along with all the others. Yes, if she wanted you in her life in any way (even as friends) she would be contacting you. Take time before dating other people but let that be a goal, let yourself heal up so you're not comparing other to her. If you want to find the right person for you, you have to be open to taking people for what they are and not what you wish or what someone else was.

You'll be fine. You're totally normal. Your love life and issues sound completely normal to me, although right now you're thinking it's tragic. But, be cautious. Because following that "my love life is tragic" mindset is what leads you into bad relationships. It happened to me, and a lot of other people, too.