thanks for the responses. i don't see a counselor because i can't afford to miss class in HS and for the most part i have been doing a lot better than last year. i also know a teacher that i can confide to when things get too rough. i am NOT trying to end my life,and i can feel pain in real life. i am also smart enough to figure out why i cut.

unfortunately i just cut this morning when i felt out of control... and now i'm worried i might keep doing it for at least a few days