Hi Mercury

Thanks a lots for sharing , openess and honest these are the strengths that I saw in you and you need to try to relax urself at the same time GROW. I know that its really hard to accept the fact that "girl" whats more she's younger than you is leading the way. But tell urself that you also can do it concentrate of how to improve urself like ur being open and share about ur struggles that is a very good things to do and I think ur humble as well to wanna to seek help. And that You do care for your relationship with ur GF. Proud OF YOU.KEEP IT UP!!!! But do it step by step start from how to score high marks in ur exams so that you will get a better job and offer in the future. ( keep telling urself to relax ) like deep breathing , exercise etc all this can helps......whatever it is dont allow ur GF's growth to hinder your growth as well control ur emotions well. I tell u the truth if she really loves you she wont mind to be with you as long as your striving and kept on trying yourself to be better . but dont be prideful if you succeed. "Be a Man to lead NOT a Man to control."

with love
carol