((StormieKnight))),

I noticed on your about me that you also have a diagnosis of PTSD, have you worked on this in therapy at all? I had those suicidal thoughts as well, and they "can" be strong with PTSD, however since I have spent time working through my past these thoughts have substancially decreased and I don't even have them anymore.

It is very important you get help and work through this history, you "can" get so you find the "release" you have longed for, but didn't know how to obtain.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes