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Originally Posted by Khym
I'm depressed again but actually it's a continuation of the same depression I always have. The maddening thing, if I can use such a phrase, is that I know there's no reason to be depressed. My life has been complicated and sad for a very long time but I can also look at it from a slightly different vantage point and see that it's not that bad. But, unless I CONSTANTLY remind, cajole and badger myself into remaining at that vantage point I deftly slip back to the place where everything is awful. It's as if I have a choice between happy and sad and chose sad unless I keep myself under strict supervision at all times.
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It's hard for me to accept that in many ways I am the only one that can fix me... I have to go to my appointments, I have to watch my attitude, I have to take my meds, I have to try to be healthy, etc.
It's so darn hard to do all of this when you're fighting depression. And it's particularly stressful when others seem to think you're not trying...
I, too, have a decent life. Many blessings, actually. But I have this illness -- depression. And depression hits people in all sorts of circumstances.
I like being able to come here, though. So far, I haven't been met with criticism, which seems to make me crash and burn...