Earlier this week I had sex with someone that I've known for a long time, but not very well. In that I've known this guy most of my life, but we don't talk regularly. It was a very impulsive kind of thing, and I was overcome with immense guilt the next day, mostly because of family and religion and respect, and all of that stuff. This was also the first time that I had consensual sex, but he didn't know that. I was so guilty that I could hardly hold a conversation with him or look him in the face. I had thought about what I'd say to him, but when we were alone, I couldn't say anything. I sent him a text message later and told him that I wanted to have a friendly relationship and he never said anything back. I need a way to get this guilt off of me, and I'm not sure if I should do anything in regards to getting him to at least talk to me. I'm pretty sure he feels guilty too. I definitely don't want to date him or anything, I just want him to talk to me like a normal person. I know he's a really nice guy, and I can't see him in person because he left to go back to college this weekend, and we're too far apart. And I'm 17.

Also, there is no way that I can tell my parents about this at all. I could keep this a secret from them for my life, I'm sure..