i often blurt whole sentences out in public, usually i am procesing an earlier event where i didn't say what i really wanted to and it is the words i really wanted to say that i blurt out, luckily nowadays so many people have hands free phones here that no one takes any notice of me as they just think i am talking to someone on the phone!!
i live alone and when i was unable to get out for 18 months I saw only one person every 4-6 weeks, they picked up my shopping list went and got it, brought it back and left. i went through every stage of loneliness,
cleaned every cupboard in the house, talking to myself, talking to my gerbils, talking to the tv, going back and forth between the kitchen and living room for hours, completely covering 6 sheets of plain A4 paper in scribble until i had blunted every pencil i owned, phoning the talking clock just to hear a different voice, and eventually not talking at all for days because there was no one to hear me anyway, depression set in and then the final stage where I felt there was no point being alive, and then the last straw .....
luckily the last straw was unsuccessful, now i see people 5 days per week on average, but hate the days i see no one as being alone now scares me cos all the feelings I felt in those 18 months flood back extremely quickly,and it scares me that i could easily slip back into the depression or last straw stage in a few days.