Thanks, hamster-bamster. I'd define myself as more agnostic than anything, so I'm not really sure how the religion stuff feels for him, but I know that it's important to him because he's talked about it a lot. This is probably the most respectful person I know - he stopped opening my doors only because I told him I'd do it myself. He has impeccable manners with everyone he communicates with. He loves and respects his parents. Everyone that knows him says, "Wow, that's a really nice kid. He's one of the nicest guys I know." So I guess in my mind, I'm trying to justify this not-so-nice behavior because I really don't know anyone that is as nice as him. I've also realized that I really don't know this guy super well. I would've thought that he'd be so religious that he wouldn't even come close to having sex with me. I was kind of surprised with that from him.

I do appreciate you saying that there is no productivity in feeling more guilty now. The guilt has been wearing off. Now it's more of just an annoyance and upset with being ignored. I don't want to make it seem like a huge deal, and push him further away. But also because of our families, we need to be okay with each other. But I guess.... oh well, there isn't much I can do. I wonder if trying to talk to him again in a couple weeks just casually would be better.. I don't want to seem pushy or clingy, or too obsessed about it. I just really don't take being ignored well from anyone.

--> Yes, we did use a condom. I guess another thing in the back of my mind now is getting on the pill... I had always thought I'd get on it before I ever got involved in something like this, but this happened so unexpectedly. I don't really know what to expect anymore, and that kind of makes me nervous.