Hi all

I'm very new to this forum. I have only just acknowledged the fact that I have or I think I have a mild form of binge eating disorder. For years, on and off I have binged. I'm not sure if there is an official definition of a binge, but for me it's being unable to control my portions, eating and planning to eat in secret followed by a range of negative feelings. Mostly angry at myself. We're not talking huge amounts of food, but way more than I need. Usually the binges are only for about 10 minutes or so.

It's kind of liberating to declare this, but I'm feeling like this is a safe environment for me to do so.

If someone out there is reading this, like me I'm sure you've read lots of stories about people with similar experiences. I've even watched a lot on you tube about this.

Everyone says the first thing to do is accept it and be good to yourself. So that is my first objective. Every day is new day and an opportunity to be good to myself, to look after my health, happiness and wellbeing.

I don't mean to sound corny, but this is the first time I have openly declared this, even anonymously!

The reason I have added sabotage to the thread title, is that I feel like I sabotage my own health and happiness by binge eating and I'm trying to acknowledge that! There's a safety in the status quo...but I don't want things to stay as they are.

When I quit smoking I took it day by day, each day I would say 'I'm not going to have a cigarette today' and I kept on saying it until I quit. So right now, I am saying 'I am not going to binge today'.

Look forward to hearing others stories, thoughts or comments!

xAzzax