I think what your doc told you sucks!
But, maybe she was she trying to test you, the thing is, nobody knows how serouis we can be until we actully do what we said we would do.
I can see that you are seroiusly talking and I wish I could tell you how sad that makes me feel.
I don't know you at all but I feel your pain, and I think that counts, don't you think?
Please keep me updated, I want to know what is going on, and yes, I care if you die or not.