I feel like I'm cheating on everybody around me.
I've been married for 8 years and even though my husband knows about my bipolar stuff, most of the time I really don't say anything about how I feel.
Neither to the rest of the people I see almost every day.
My boss has no idea, and did I mention he and his wife are good friends of us?!
The thing that hurt me the most is that becuase nobody knows what is going on, I can see their faces change wiht my behavior, and let me tell you, in those times I really think I'm going crazy.
Also, becuase of the way that I was raised, I don't show my emotions much, except to my husband and my daughter, it is even really hard for me to put them in words, so ussually people think I'm cold and distant, when in reality what I was trying to do was avoid "those escrutining faces"
Am I really lying to everybody? How do I explain that I have problems?