Hi there
have just registered with this place, and just read your post.
I know what you mean by "lying", though I don't think you are, you're just protecting yourself from others' reproachements & "pull yourself together" which generally comes with this disease.
I myself am unsure of what I have, it's either major depressive episodes or BP II (the latter, I reckon) but my (new) doctor gave me some Temazepam today, signed me off work for 3 weeks & told me to go back next weds. I felt very patronised by her, the GP I usually see was fully booked & I couldn't wait anymore. I'm just very tired at the mo, can't stop feeling low but can't face anyone at work anymore (& worry about going back as some will think I'm crazy & should just get on with it) or even my work load, or being at home with my 3 year-old girl who, thankfully, is at playschool until 5 pm... I'm just so tired of putting on a brave face!!!
I don't know you, Biplol, but I suspect it's the same as it's for me, you just don't want to burden anyone anymore, tired of apologising & you prob don't want people looking at you funny.

If only there wasn't such a great stigma attached to mental illness...

T x