Sounds like me, in many ways. 'o.O Sometimes when you're particularly aware, like us, it can be difficult to understand and accept; that's my theory, anyway. Sometimes I have various similar thoughts, but I'm much too logical and rational a person to know it's possible... but then... I don't know it's not, so maybe it is? xD So yeh, it gets out of hand, really. It's ridiculous for sure, and that ridiculousness is what will keep you knowing what really is real. Life can be ugly, and life can be pretty; that is real, and I'm sure it would be nice for it to be something else, but... well... this is it.

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Hah, "Proof Reader". I totally get that. I've massively obsessed over that for a very long time. Every single thing I say has to be re-read and corrected, even with speech I have a tendency to think over every iota of what I've said, and I often reiterate with minor corrections. lol It's madness! In fact, I'm currently reading this, now. lol It's bad enough when you touch type and read everything when you type it, but to read it yet again? Come on! xD Sometimes I read it again and again and again... when will I be satisfied! >.<

I believe I've read this 3 times, now.

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Also, I understand the"debilitating" thing, because I'm "disabled" and OCD is evidently a huge part of why it is so. >.<