well someone has to tell you. I hope that you are using clean blades and taking care of the cuts so you do not become infected. Even with cutting, there is a certain amount of responsibility to it. i know, believe me I am a cutter too. not currently cutting though. i won't tell you to stop, but have you considered that it in and of itself is a trigger? the after effects just feeds into the depression and self hate if there is any. maybe something else to take it's place that has lesser of the lingering effects?